Friday, August 31, 2012

Restless

"Then sings my soul, to my savior God.  To thee we sing, how great thou art!"

I think maybe I've slept 10 minutes tonight.  I guess it perhaps still could be considered "tonight" after-all it is only 2:13 in the morning.  We fly out at 6.  That means we get up at 3ish, to catch the shuttle to the airport at 3:30, to get there around 4.  Fun morning (or is it considered morning at 330?).

I just can't fall asleep.  I have a number of things running through my mind and heart, really, that is keeping me from rest.  Did we pack everything?  How are the kids and Melissa sleeping?  I set my alarm, right?  God we really need you, please do big things to calm and lead our family in this next transition.  I wander how many people are praying for us?  Did we ask enough people to pray?  Man, I wish Noah would stop kicking in his sleep! -- and honestly those are only the dominant ones, with lots of littler things mingled in there as well.

I'm pretty excited, and that doesn't help either.  I'm also pretty unsettled.  I think I've learned in the last few years that I can't work in absolute chaos, materially.  What I mean is that I can work in chaos relationally, or emotionally, or even spiritually, but if everything on my desk is cluttered, and papers are piled everywhere then I just have a hard time concentrating at all.  Weird, I know, but that's how I am.  What is hard about that right now is that we don't have a place to live when we get to Venezuela.

Now, we are going to stay in the girls apartment for the time being because the rest of the team isn't there so it is empty, but it still isn't ours, you know?  We can't really unpack because we're hopefully moving out shortly.  We just can't get settled and situated.  And this makes me a bit tense.

That is our big prayer request right now, and honestly our biggest step of faith currently.  Housing is one of those things that is good you may never even notice.  But if your living situation is hard (say with the 4 of us and 3 single girls all crammed in a 3 bedroom apartment) life just gets exponentially more difficult.  No alone time may be doable for extroverts but Melissa and I both need quiet alone time to refresh and rest.  Forget it if we can't find an apartment.

If you are reading this and could spare 5 minutes to pray for our living situation, we would be so grateful.  Then if you could even just comment below saying you prayed it would encourage us greatly.


I opened this post with a line from a popular hymn, because that is where we cling currently.  God is the great one.  He is the one that deserves praise and honor.  He will provide.  Truly he cares for the sparrow and has numbered the hairs on our heads; God the giver will do what he loves to do - show himself as the giver and the great one.

5 comments:

Claire said...

hey my favorite neighbors!

Praying for yor housing and transition to VZ right now. I miss you already!

Love,
your favorite neighbor of all time/your #1 blog fan. Claire

Meredith said...

Praying for you guys!

Matt said...

Praying for you guys.

Kuch said...

Pray God gives you a sanctuary where His Spirit is strong and the enemy is bound. That your family finds a comfortable place where they can enjoy the Lord and one another. Also, a place where you are close enough to the ministry that your schedules can be flexible and enjoyable. Praise God for His provision.

Anonymous said...

Praying that God will expedite the housing process for you guys! Also for provision for space, personal time, and the ability to just begin to settle in - new home or not.

And that the Lord would reveal his goodness in the minutea of it all.

We love you guys.

-Toddys